How kundalini energy, spiritual awakening & the birth of my son helped reclaim my voice, power & purpose and why it matters if you’re a spiritual being who agreed to come to Earth at this time!
If you’re ready to meet the deepest YOU
I’m glad you’re here
You have a contribution to make, but subtle layers of fear still masquerade as truth.
Over the past few years, I’ve witnessed a movement. Spiritual seekers, alchemists and healers are being called, awakened and mobilized… To transform culture. Sow seeds of connection. Love what’s been forgotten. Shine the light into the darkness.
For too long now, old hurts, fears and pain have been running the show… Keeping us disconnected from our deepest self, our body, our community, and the presence – the Being that always is.
But a deeper knowing continues to emerge through us. We are here to alter the course of humanity. As many have said before, it begins within.
You probably feel it calling to you most hours of the day. But how do you bring your deepest spiritual realizations into the world effectively and powerfully… So they’re not just fleeting moments of truth, but the building blocks of a brand new world?
We must encounter what I call the awakening of the Heart.
Are you ready?
Isolation in the motherland
I was born in the Soviet Union, known as the motherland. Ironically at that time, Soviet babies were torn from their mothers. While many children around the world were being held, loved and nurtured… I took my first breaths in isolation.
Growing up in the Soviet Union, it’s very unlikely to hear “I love you” from your mom or siblings. I was sent away for months in the summer to a sleep-away camp, already feeling so disconnected.
One day, a counselor humiliated me in front of my entire cabin – I asked for something I needed and was denied in a soul-crushing way that caused me much pain and embarrassment.
In that moment, I lost my voice. And it remained lost for many years.
Seeking love in all the wrong places
We left USSR for Israel in 1990
When I was 14, I met Jesus. When I read Christ’s teachings the yearning in my heart was filled. “He speaks my language and understands my heart!” I thought. It was my first contact with divine presence and Love.
As my family and I continued to move around the world, I wholeheartedly sought to deepen this experience of love through church. I soon learned the container of religion couldn’t hold the depth of truth I longed for.
Disappointed, I turned to what many seekers of truth eventually find…
Drugs. Parties. Ecstasy. Late nights, philosophical musings… bonding and belonging like I never dreamed possible.
I remember layers of trauma, fear and pain releasing, feeling the freedom flowing through my body. I could just BE with others. I felt a rush of connection and love.
After a few years of this, I got severely burned out, really sick and suffered immensely. On my 27th birthday, I got sober and dedicated myself to yoga & meditation with the ferocity of a woman hungry for nothing less than the whole Truth.
THE FIRST AWAKENING
Remembering who am I
Two weeks into my meditation practice I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. My awareness entered the heart and I’ve experienced infinite spaciousness, the void. I finally felt what I’d always knew and longed for – HOME. The deepest sense of connection imaginable. Beyond connection even. My whole sense of identity vanished. So much energy was unleashed and my whole body shook with so much fear. It was surreal.
I wanted human support and guidance to understand what was happening to me. “Stop meditating!” everyone would say. I couldn’t, the urge was too strong. I became a devotee of this energy instead.
I experienced her as Kali, the Mother, chopping everything that was unreal out of my experience. It was chaotic and beautiful. My soul eventually drew me to Arunachala & Ramana Maharishi’s ashram in India to deepen my realization.